2009 Year-end report

Every year for about five years now, we gang up for a yearend dinner and then read aloud to everyone the yearend report that we have written.

No. It is not something about audit or financial stuff.

Its just a way of putting in a nutshell the important stuff of your year that has passed.

For 2009, I have decided to blog it and then share it on my fb account for my friends to see. Paperless and environmental-friendly. Haha.

Death. 2009 has shown me again that death is inevitable. An aunt and an uncle on my father side. My dog. The plants I got from a special someone. A celebrity mom I came across with. A legend. An angel. A funny girl. A great leader. They have all been called by the One who has created us all. Hard to imagine living life without them but like I have been told too many times, death is a great equilibrium. Everyone goes through it in time. It happens to the rich and famous. The pain it may bring varies and felt so terribly that it becomes a humbling experience. And then we all have to move on from it...for us who still haven't been called by Him.

Family. 2009 is considered a blessed year in my family. My dad was able to go on vacation and spend time with us. Both of my parents remain healthy. My siblings in their familial upswing. My relationship with them wasn't strained this year. I hope it continues that way. Closer to my nieces. Fun times with the relatives from time to time. Family reunions well attended. Blessings were shared to everyone. Though I miss Tatay this year on the reunion, I'm sure he is in a better place now. Still get teary-eyed not seeing him around from time to time. Funny how I am attached to him in some ways. While not everything is rosy on the familial bonds, they are still good if you look at it a bigger perspective. I just hope that in 2010 Nanay will be healthier and less depressed and that she lessens the grudges with some of her favorites. I would wish for good health and happiness for everyone in my family...along with the extended families.

Career. I had an interesting twist this year on my career. Twas the first time I got a high rating and I have accomplished much for the team. I did feel deserving of the "High Performance. Delivered." tagline. Worked hard and even managed to put my chargeability rate to 120. It was on the upswing I guess, and I'm thankful to the Lord for giving me the strength, courage and knowledge to have done them all wonderfully. Made me realize other things as well. That work is not permanent. Sometimes you have it. Sometimes you dont. Take really good care of it. Learn from it and then prove your worth. And save, not only the money it brings to your fold, but also the experiences that goes with it. Someday, it will be useful, one way or another. For 2010, I wish to be able to deliver more and perform better from my last year's feedback.

Love. I wanted to skip this part of my report, but then I had to be brave enough to write down the lessons I have learned. Simply put, love will come, love will show you the beauty of everyhing in this world, love will let you experience all the tremendous pains as well. Then love may leave. Momentarily. Or permanently. And then love may choose to remain, but only in your heart. I have lost him this year. I have no regrets about it because I share his sentiments that we both have to let go. The next line of battle to maintain that love is not feasible for me and so I indeed have to let go. To that one I have dreamt of having for the rest of my life, Thank you. Everything remains in my heart. The concern will stay, perhaps forever, but I am ready to face that forever alone but not lonely. I have told you one too many times that I will always love you. I still think I will, but life has to go on. I'm happy that we have both moved on.
-To everyone else who have lost the battle this year, never ever fear being alone.

Friends. I am forever thankful that my friends remained with me throughout this year. I have gained some new friends during the last quarter of this year and they are proving to be trustworthy like the rest of them. MY kumares remain solid with me. The PEX people are still fun to be with, and while some of them are too irritating at times, I love them in my own way. My yahoo friends still keep me updated. The Maricelian friends. The project members have grown to be friendly towards each other. Special shoutout to those friends outside the country and those college friends who never forget to get intouch and reconnect. To jamie, roniel and irving and ralf who still tries to enjoy a minute or two with me. To all my ates, in and outside of facebook, special mention to my girls...ags, mye, liezle, jing, rocky, miss deng, catz and those I rarely see, maan and arie. Last but not the least are my inner circle. The circle I have coffee with every week. The baguio gang. The bekis. Be it in gembangs or std, you all proved to be worthy of my time and some effort. Its sad that one of us has migrated somewhere but wherever our destiny bring us, we will always always be together in hearts. Love you all guys.